Need Divorce

I am married in 2008. I have no good relationship with my hubby from the time I first got pregnant. from the start there was no good chat or talk between us. he never sit and talk with me or share anything to me. for the first 5 months we had only time being together is when we had physical relationship. but for that we had not spent much time together. I have a sister in law who is in our house separated from her hubby even before my marriage but they didn't inform us the issue. later in 2008 she got divorce notice and till now her divorce case going on. in order to console her we took her along with us everywhere. my hubby loves his sister like anything. not only my hubby whole family. I too was pity on her...but that itself took a lot away from me. my hubby used to talk a lot to my mother in law and sister in law...they know everything what he is doing what's going on in the family etc...but I don't know. he never sit and talk with me till now. later many issues popped up and I was forced for many fights...I can't rise my opinion or voice for anything. entire family will stand against me. he has never been a support to me in anyway. we don't have any physical relationship for years. I forced him for having 2nd child and I have fought for 1 and half years and finally got my second child. after that we have not had relationship much. I never talk to him unless and until I need money. we have a relationship not even like a roommate. he wants me to live like this. ..and so he is happy with the way I am now. but he also know that I don't care for him anymore. he is least bothered about it as he still has his moms support. even if he needs coffee he will call his mom and she will call me and ask me to do. he never takes any responsibility at home. I too wanted a smooth life as my kids are growing and so I never fight or show my feelings outside....but inside me I am TOTALLY dieing to live a better life. I want my hubby to treat me as equal..respect my feelings but he is least bothered about them. he is happy with the way we live now. because of this my health has come down a lot. lot of internal issues I am coming across. I want to get divorce. I want a better life...not a slave life. but as I have 2 younger sisters unmarried my parents are not supporting me. I waited all these years but due to many issues life is just dragging. now I am 37. I don't want to drag my life like this anymore. I don't want to live like this. I find lot of same characters in my kids too as they are watching them everyday. I am finding it too hard to get them right...they are questioning me like dad is doing so...athai is talking so...like that...atleast for their benefits I want to come out and give them a better life and character. please help me how to get out of my current life and find a better life. I never had a satisfaction of being a wife. I want a better life. a satisfied life. I have few emails and hand written letter which I have wrote to explain him my feelings. I have gathered all. I tried online counselling. they too said you have been so patient all these years if you need divorce we will support you. but still I don't know a way to get it as I have no support. please help me someone